Storytelling

You know how some people are awful storytellers, you know they tell a pointless story and then look at you like it's the funniest thing ever.  Well thats what it is like to live with Amanda aka Smallz.  Tonight she repeatedly told weird stories and thought they were the funniest things in the world.  One involved a hamster (that turned out to be a guinea pig) learning how to say row (which is so simple).  Oh how I love living with younger girls.  Amanda and Bess you guys bring so much joy and laughter into my life here in the 104. Im so thankful for you guys :)

PS- And then I found ten dollars

Bullied

Do you ever feel bullied when you are in a sandwich line?  Im talking any kind of sandwich line (GDH, Springs, Subway...) anything that you have to tell the person what you want on your sandwich.  I DO.  I always feel pressure when im in line to get things on my sandwich that they ask if I want on it.  Im a plain kind of gal when it comes to eating sandwiches, i like them plain and dry... just meat and cheese.  So when it comes my time in the GDH sub line i always freak out.  Every time I tell them no I dont want mayo or mustard on my sandwich they look at me like im crazy, the same happens when they get to the veggies.  I always feel as if I should get something extra and just take it off when I get to my table, but I cant bring myself to do it because it would be wasteful.  Im torn inside and feel the pressure weighing down on me.

I think this feeling of pressure finds its root in my sin of people pleasing.  I always want to make others happy and do whatever I can to make them think higher of me and not be disappointed in me.  I pray that I can be so satisfied in Christ that it wouldnt matter what others are thinking about me, that God would be the only one that I look to in all situations.

Halloween: H2O

Herro there everyone, its been awhile but i hope to not be so long ever again.  But on to why im actually writing this thing... Halloween.  The Michael Myers movies are my absolute favorite halloween movies. Growing up my family and I would always gather around the television to watch these movies.  They are my father and brothers favorite so of course its all we watched.  I always get freaked out and have nightmares but at the same time oddly I cant get enough of them.

But a for real update on my life is that I am now a senior! This means I have to think about my future and all that comes with graduating.  This is all very scary for me.  My personality is just to sit back and wait for something to happen and then go from there.  Now there are so many different directions my future could go its scary.  Im having to trust the Lord in so many new ways.  And I am loving it!!!  In my Old Testament Prophets class we were studying Isaiah 12 and this chapter jumped out at me.  It encompasses a lot of what I am praying for right now.  Especially verse 2 "Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid.  The LORD, the LORD himself is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation."  I am praying that my heart would totally trust in what the Lord has planned for me and that I would not fear what the Lord has in store for me.

Its been a while...

Sorry guys it has been so long but the summer has flown by and kept me away from my duty as a blogger. And in case you were wondering, yes Africa was AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!! It was very challenging but I had an amazing trip; full of laughter, tears and adventures!

But needless to say the start of school is here. Its bittersweet, im glad to be back but I do not want to start classes. But the im so excited to be back and get to catch up with all of my friends!! The other day one of my best friends Amanda and I were talking about our summers and catching up and doing all the things that friends do when I informed her of one of my new prayer requests. Which is...... I am now praying (amongst other things) that Eminem would become a Christian!!! I must confess that I have a love for hip hop music of all kinds and Eminem has always been apart of that. But I think about Eminem how cool it would be if he became a Christian and all the people who would get to hear about that and how many amazing things the Lord could do through him!!

One of the funny things about this is I told Amanda about my new prayer and like the second thing she said about was.... "you should blog about it." So here it is Amanda, just for you.